To End a Life
She looked up at the building. So tall. How could anything stand so tall? Especially how she was feeling today. The bricks on the building were many… and the pattern was discerned. Just a jumble of bricks on an old building. And the windows…so big! She couldn’t believe she was contemplating taking a life.
The doors were in front of her. She made her decision. She was going to go up and do what she must do. To justify the way she felt. But it didn’t feel right.
So many times she had said how much she hated her. How she could kill her so easily. To snuff the life out of her. She thought about it many times. So many years of fighting. So many years of hatred. It would be so easy. Just to go up to her bed, and…
But she couldn’t think of her old thoughts now. She made her decision. She would go up and do it. There was no other choice.
She went into the automatic doors. How funny how accommodating they were. Just open for her. Let her in. So convenient. She walked down the long corridor.
She pushed the elevator button for the second floor. The floor she knew she was on. To finish it all. To do what she must do. And not look back.
Her mind started wander. Back to so many arguments. How she told her she hated her. Many times. Enough to kill her. And now she was in the elevator. Almost there. And she knew what she had to do.
The elevator doors opened. She slowly stepped out into the corridor. Room 1203. She had been there before. So many times before.
The door was closed. She opened the door slowly. And saw her. Lying in that nasty bed. She walked over to the side of the bed. Her mother woke up, and smiled at her.
A nurse came into the room and worked on one of the machines by the bed. She left.
She looked at her mother. Her mother’s face was not the same. So thin. Sunken eyes.
“I’m sorry mom, but I can’t do it. I love you so much, it’s just too much to ask of me. I will stay by your side, and hold your hand.”
Her mother looked at her and understood. She closed her eyes to sleep. And soon would sleep forever.
To my friend Bobbi….I miss you
